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Square root three
I’m sure that I will always be
A lonely number like root three
The three is all that’s good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine
For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic
I know I’ll never see the sun, as 1.7321
Such is my reality, a sad irrationality
When hark! What is this I see,
Another square root of a three
As quietly co-waltzing by,
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer
We break free from our mortal bonds
With the wave of magic wands
Our square root signs become unglued
Your love for me has been renewed
And then things happen what you didn't imagine
Yeah just like the title, there are things happen that you didn't guess. On 2 januari I did get a late "happy 2009" text message. The sender was someone who I didn't know, who was signed with Lizz. I thought that it was from someone else. So I send a text message back. And so I learned who that one is. Never thought that I was that I could get a friend from this random thing.
I know that she doesn't trust me fully yet, but I'm someone who is honest with people. The thing is, who fair is to me, I return it with my help. Yes it is right that I help people, maybe too much. But if someone want to trust me, then i want to help them. But back to Lizz. She is a person who has a great baggage with her, with emotional difficulties. But then, you learn the people who you can trust and who you can't trust. In her case was that she was 4 years alone.
I hate when people are alone, because I was also alone, not a long time ago. Then you learn people to trust, to let them see your full self. But there are a lot of people who can't handle it, but those who can handle and are trying to help you, those are your true friends. I haven't much true friends, but those who are my true friends, are helping me. In more ways then they think. Sometimes they help me to decide things, sometimes the help me to get my standards back. And sometimes they do stupid things where I agree with, but that isn't bad. You learn to live with that, you feel bad. Then you learn to cope with it. And eventually it will wear off.
The result is that I didn't pass any exams. Till previous week. It seems like that I'm a guinine speaker. The only small thing was, that I had a speech that ws about math, and nobuddy did understand it So I didn't archive my goal said the teacher to me, what was a the problem. This was, because all my other student, who are from other workfields. So I was the only one with math skills, and the other did things with languages. But because this there was a democratic decision. People could vote if I had pass it, and 5 of the 17 people did vote that I didn't pass. I'm glad that I pass that test.
for other things, I'm also looking for other work. I know that it isn't the time to do this, with this economy recession, but the traveling is bad. It is very anoying that I have to travel on friday. So I'm looking for a new job, with is with managing people. The current job is in a fish distribution, where I have the responsebility to manage the fish, the people and the computer. Only bad things are that I'm 19 years old, and don't have diplomas in the managing. So it would be looking to other jobs, but not a real search.
TV programs, what should I say about that? I know, that they're the evil. With those advertisements, you get 10 minutes watch time, and 5 minutes advertisements. What the hell with that. If you want to watch something, then you don't want those breaks. Lucky we have less advertisements that US programma's. This you can see if you watch docter Phil. Then you have those sentices like and we seet hat after the break, and then there is no break. So poor you. Myself, I watch tv seldom. Most things I download and watch it. Because on my room in Tilburg, I have a small tv. And with these times you can get a HD movie in 2 hours, almost streaming.
Streaming, that is something new. Why are ISP's reduce the streaming. It looks like they are reduce everything. They reduce newsgroups, they reduce streaming, they reduce P2P. And then you get those politician who suggest those very silly things. Things like let's ban those videogames. Those shooting are from people who are violent, and if they see something about a videogame or something like that. Then it is sure, that they are influed with that and videogames are bad. If you look at the history then there are same thing with music, and lots of other things. Why don't we all go back to the Middle Ages. Where there is no electricity, where people who are different get burned alive.
Music, yeah music change. Music itself and your taste to music. 5 years ago I shouldn't think to listen to opera and death metal. Where I did think about was soft rock, and old rock. Now I listen also old music, but with other genres. Now I'm addicted to Radiohead. I'm searching for new music, but to find music I like is a hard task, almost impossible.
I would like to make a road trip when I'm done with my study, and get a internship outside netherlands. But to get that is a hard road. I don't mind to get that internship in India or other places. And the last idea for the summer vacation to go to UK or other places, and meet people from the WSGF. I'm always curious about people who are typing those text. And I want to help Ibrin with donate money, for those projects. Too bad that the economy doesn't like that idea and have to pay a lot of taxes. So maybe when I found a way that doesn't cost too much, then I will send you some money. 23:35, 17 Januari 2009 CET
Easier to update
I’m addicted to something new, Sunflower seed. Bought them at the supermarket, and currently eating them. Did already fill a board full of shells (The outer part you can’t eat). Also listening to some old and new songs, here is a list of most played of Winamp (you that is only after my format).
| Artist | Song | Played |
| Linkin Park | Easier to run | 23 |
| Tenacious D | Kickapoo | 22 |
| Tenacious D | Master Exploder | 19 |
| Red Hot Chili Peppers | Desecration Smile | 18 |
| Tenacious D | The Metal | 17 |
| Red Hot Chili Peppers | Wet Sand | 16 |
| Linkin Park | Numb | 16 |
| Linkin Park | Breaking the habit | 16 |
| Tenacious D | Dude | 15 |
But yeah, did some other things as well. My girlfriend was here yesterday; think we had a pretty good time. We listened to each other, said what we wanted to say, and we hugged almost the whole day. Too bad I can see her only 1 day in the week, but it is that way. She also has to focus on the study and things like that. And for something else what happened that day, my bicycle is broken. The tire did explode when I was filling it with air. So that will be going to a bicycle shop, because I have 2 left hands when it comes to replacing the inner tire part.
I’m feeling so different than 2 years ago. I’m living on my own, taking care of myself, going to school, cooking for myself. No more complains from my parents, just me in a room of peace. Because of this, friends are saying that I’m more quiet and more at peace. Listening to my own music, doing my own dishes, drinking things when I want, and how I want. No longer on my toes for mistakes, no longer do I get a verbal punishment. Really, I love it, and this is maybe where I have waited for so long. I don’t know, but it feels good. Last time I was thinking, am I lonely? This answer is, yeah most of the times you are.
Currently I’m playing team fortress 2 with a friend of mine. Did get a guess pass, and playing it some time. My friend is a bit of a lot of playing TF2. Currently over the 400 hours. But When I going to do some math, my world of warcraft addiction, has 45 day playtime on my main, and that is for a total of 1080 hours. Currently putting that on a pause, because it wasn’t fun anymore to me. It was only farming loot, and getting the boss down on a non focus way. The people who wanted to work for it were gone, and the others didn’t work for it. Maybe I will return at Wrath of the Lich King, but fortunately that will take some time.
Getting some idea’s for the widescreengamingforum contest, but that will have to take some time. 0:14, 29 September 2008 CET
Some thoughts
Yeah I've brainstormed about things. The first thing is that nobuddy is save. Some people can't agree with this. We all have to suffer and there is only one certain thing, is death. Everything else isn't certain. Look around, you think like what could happen to me. Then think how many stupid people have done it before.
The same wierd thing is if you look into the guiness book of records. What people are doing to get an entry in that book. There are also themed editions from it, like the gamers edition or woman edition. And then the emagine how many profit you can make on an book or a cd
Music, a small word for a big meaning. What does it do with people, why are so keen to watch. You have enough sub cultur. What metal is for me, could be a ballad for someone else. Don't know why people fight. Maybe because want to be accepted. Sometimes people just wanne have someone to talk with.
My favorate bands are Nightwish, delain, within temptation. They are the ones who you can call, gothic rock or medolic metal. The red hot chilli peppers, 3 doors down, intwine are the more pop like bands what I listen. Then we have Ost (original soundtrack) left, most of games and anime. Some names are: the black mages, kodji kondo.
There are times to post, and times to sleep. Falling almost in sleep, its time to end this post. Good night all!
0:39, 16 September 2008 CET
Pocket pc time
It's time for another update of my blog. As you can read will this blog only talk about pocket pc's. As you could read in my previous entry was that I have a new mobile. It is a pocket pc where you can phone home with. There are some small bugs in the software, but I can live with it. The bug what I still find anoying is the Com manager bug. I can open the com manager, but i see only thewhite text. Ah well fixable when I want to make time free for it.
Currently also programming for the pocket pc, bit hard what API I can use and what not, but still learning. The user input is going flawless. Most used programs are programs that can help you on a you never imagined. Like that piece of software, what people with a pocket pc can use as a webcam. Another program emulates my calculater for school, the TI 89. There are more things to add but I need to catch some sleep now.
1:19, 19 September 2008 CET
Time is standing still
There wasn't a blog post of me for a while, so did an update here. Some subjects what we are discussing are: a new PDA phone: necessary or gimmick? The thinking of the month, my girlfriend, and some other major things. Don't know how long this post is (currently typing this on my new phone), but more about that later on.
Also, a problem is a broken com manager, can toggle but can’t see it. Another problem is that I need a browser who is supporting full pages with easy zoom levels like the Wii browser. To make this paragraph not too negative I’d like to add this: You can insert a microSD into this mobile. Going to buy a 2 GB version if it isn’t that expensive.
So for the next subject, thinking if the month. How can i support my friend if he is depressive for a long time. I didn’t read books about this subject but I can share what I know. Support the one who is depressive. It is the first step to gain trust. The second thing is talk with him/her. Most of the time they're lonely and have so much to share but they are afraid to do it. Tell them they can trust them, and keep it that way. It's their secrets so don't tell anyone else. And the third thing, do what you can do to help, but sometimes you have to give it to people who studied for it. This will be the hardest part for the helper, but it is the truth.
About my girlfriend: I got a really sweet girlfriend. She is my everything for me. Life is so much better with her. If I could choose then I would stay a lifetime with her. We will see how it go.
People think that some things are just plain normal. Take as example trusting someone. How many people have to do that for someone? I think everybody. And how many are keeping that promise? That answer is almost none. Why can't people trust each other? Is this too much asked these days? I guess it is. The new generation is born with computers, television and other technology. They will ride the waves of information’s and the ones who fall in the ocean are doomed for the rest of their life. And the worst thing is that almost no one cares about this.
So people, keep on dreaming, don't awake for the changes of the world. We are living in the science age, and progression is a step backwards.
0:39, 16 September 2008 CET
Just a simple update
Just stopped by to let you look at this, made it with the programma called Ascii Generator DotNet. It's open source so if you want to change things, you can. It is programmed in C#. And no this program is not made by me. Did I mention that wiki is sometimes... Really a pain?
Another thing I found, is the music of Northrend, and you can download it here. There is a lot of news on Wrath of the Lich King, (what is hor+) and my source what I always check is Spooncraft. Is a nice little site with much information. Other than that, School has begun for me. When I traveled to there, I heard that I wasn't signed in for that class. Weird, I did get a e-mail etc etc. But hey it is school, always late. Now I'm helping with OOSB, It's something that has to bind 1st year student on the study, and make them aware of there study choice. Last year, we started with 17 people, and now we have 7 people left. And it isn't sure that all that 7 will pass the second year, and 1 will go sure to the university. So that is a small group, and hopeful the first year students are nice. There are some projects in this year where we are simulating other projects, so that they can learn from us.
Outlook 2007, sometimes a really nice program, and other times it just won't work. I did set my outlook up for my laptop and my desktop. Outlook will sync my mail with fontys-mail, and that is using Microsoft exchange server. Was a hard search on the fontys site, or a quick search on google. I did also sync my gmail account with outlook, and the last thing what I have to sync is my Hotmail account. Not that I use my hotmail that much, but to pay for that is just plain stupid. The same with syncing outlook (exchange) agenda with gmails agenda, only possible with a third party external program, and i just want a nice plugin.
I'm playing the game World of Warcraft, and with the current guild we are trying to kill new bosses in Black Temple. Reliquary of Souls (RoS) need a massive dps in phase 2 and 3. In phase 1 there is a weird debuff that force you to minimize the incoming damage, because you can't heal. So priests can use shield, some pally's can do there split damage thing. Rogues have to evasion tank there enrage debuff. And there is a nasty spell Souldrain. So basicly for a shadow priest the 1st phase is just shield everyone you can shield, get some dot's up for other mana regen, and dispell as fast as possible. Too bad we don't try Lady Vashj or Kael'thas Sunstrider, because I still have that attunement quest for Mount Hyjal.
16:39, 27 August 2008 CET
Vacation? Work, work, work!
Yes it is true, you have vacation and what do you want to do? Yeah relax, that is true. But what do you get? All those jobs you never had time for it, is gonna occur for you. Helping someone with their computer, fixing some video's, making some screenshot, program a application for you G15, etc etc. You will know that feeling too. I'd chosen to work, a lot of work. So basically my summer vacation was, work, Campzone, more work. Now i'm trying to get a part-time job, that fits my study. I'm just a second year (from the 4, and no I'm not gonna explain the Dutch school system). Currently I still work for a fish company, to do a bit of logistic work, to cut fish, weight them, and some computer work. I work with a deadline, but most of the time I succeed to get everything done before that. It isn't that bad, if I'm finished with work, yeah then I smell like fish. But there is a amazing solution for that, a shower and soap.
Tuesday, 12 august, did some shopping in Utrecht. It is a nice city to walk, and to see some churches. I'm not that shopping fan (note: Last time was 3 years ago) and to go shopping with 3 girls... Yeah I should have known that but I survived. Did actually buy something, gloves without finger tips, dunno how i can describe that else. The reason why I did go shopping? Simple, I had no choice. Almost kidnapped. Or was it self sacrificing? Anyway, there was a DeviantART meeting, where there was a grand total of 4 people, Lana, Alysha, Christine and me. Lana and Alysha are 2 good friends of mine, old school mates and such. Christine was visiting The Netherlands and was thinking to make a meeting. Too bad that there wasn't much people, but it was fun. She did know more of the history then we 3 combined. Anyway in a garden of a church Lana did made this picture where I'm all zen thingy (or just enjoying the sun that was shining
Did more things happen? Let me think. Nah, nothing really exciting. Ah that Wiki text, with picture and such is sometimes a pain. Now I know how hard people work every day to get some money to live for, and almost no free time. I praise myself lucky that I'm just a student. Almost careless with money, I live on my own cheap, can play games or watch anime. There are so many people out there who need help, or need some support. Things that I realize too well, 5 years ago I was someone too. But a friend of mine came to me and helped me, and that is why helping people became a way of living for me. There is no week that I don't try to help people, to listen to there story's, to give them advise. If it helps I don't know, but at least I tried. Sometimes parents, friends and ex-lovers have to open their eyes and say, I was wrong, and sorry. But that is something that will not happen, and we have to live with that. I've seen some trouble, really there is a thin curtain. So that is why i say, help people who are in need!
01:32, 16 August 2008 CET
Campzone
So, this is the spamming of my vacation. 11 day long, did I set in a tent and gamed, leeched, drink and socialized. Did get a interview and they used 10 second footage of it, here is the Link (dutch).
What did I do exactly on campzone? Good question. Just socialized there, talking about stuff like.... Computers and other stuff. On day 6 I made a break from campzone, to get to my girlfriend and to take a bath there. After that bathing I felt better, and did do my hair, my face and my nails. If that wasn't enough I ate there. I really like that place there, some kind of quietness and peace. After getting a new Campzone 2008 Hitsong (i kissed a girl - katy perry), we wanted to listen other music. With some trance in the maintent, and some good hard rock on the herrieveld (freely translated like noise field). Did walk there, and saw some people, spoke some people. Getting some drinks in the middle of the night, and just chilling in someone bank. Yeah life is good there. Only bad thing is we got a sun on our tent about 11.00, and we were forced to get out of the tent or sweat till death. I did choose the first one, and with some fans it was doable. Nothing of hardware broke on this campzone, so i'm proud on myself. Now i'm back at home, just relaxing, and found this quote:
Ezekiel 25:17
The path of the righteous man is beset on all sides by the inequities of the selfish and the tyranny of evil men. Blessed is he who, in the name of charity and good will, shepherds the weak through the valley of the darkness. For he is truly his brother's keeper and the finder of lost children. And I will strike down upon thee with great vengeance and furious anger those who attempt to poison and destroy my brothers. And you will know I am the Lord when I lay my vengeance upon you.
This quote is from Pulp Fiction, a good movie I think. You will hear more of me.
01:02, 05 August 2008 CET
Test Entry
This is a test entry, gonna use it a lot more.
I must thank Ibrin, for hosting this blog. Nothing really exciting here, gonna spam here with my campzone, my vacation.
Excuse me for the bad grammar, this is the first and the last time I apologize me about this.
18:30, 23 July 2008 CET
